A song and a sticker

Today i woke up knowing that this song somehow makes a lot of sense in my head:

Paramore Decode Lyrics

How can I decide what's right

When you're clouding up my mind?

I can't win your losing fight

All the time.

Not gonna ever own what's mine

When you're always taking sides

But you won't take away my pride.

No, not this time.

Not this time.

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well.

But how did we get here?

Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes

And it's hanging on your tongue.

Just boiling in my blood.

But you think that I can't see

What kind of man that you are,

If you're a man at all.

Well, I will figure this one out

On my own.

(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")

On my own.

(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well, yeah.

But how did we get here?

Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?

We've gone and made such fools Of ourselves.

Do you see what we've done?

We've gone and made such fools

Of ourselves.

Yeah.Yeah.

How did we get here?

When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.

How did we get here?

Well, I used to know you so well.

I think I know.

I think I know.

There is something I see in you.

It might kill me.

I want it to be true.

And then someone pointed me out to this sticker: Yup! Mind over matter!

It's hard but not impossible!

My first Christmas tree

Today my day just seems like it is never going to end so.... i decided to focus on something positive instead of continuing to think about things that just make me... sad....

So this weekend i bought and assembled my first ever Christmas tree (yeah i didnt go for the real thing cuz 1) i aint got space for it; and 2) for environmental concerns)!!! This, for many years was a big thing around my house, the whole fam got together and looked through things for the Christmas tree, we usually put it up on the 1st or 8th of December and only took it down after January 6th... Those were the good old days... in recent years if the tree was put together on the 24th that's only because the Christmas that year was at our house...

Anyway... now that i have my own apartment the tree just regained a whole new meaning... i mean it's small and the lights are funky and it might not look good to most people but i had a blast working on it... going to the store and getting it, picking the ornaments, the lights, the bells that i thought were apart and that when i got home realized that were all together and couldnt be used as i thought... it was just... fun! And for those 2 or something hours i managed to not think about anything else (yes, not even in you) and just focus on this tree.
I know it's probably an exageration of the tree's importance but... that's what it is. Now my next project: Getting Christmas presents for everyone... hmmmm this will be a difficult task!

*side note*: i see a change in you but i'm afraid to ask, i dont know if i want to know the answer so soon, is it that your mind is elsewhere or that you just prefer it like that? You used to tell me everything and anything and now... i dont know.... maybe it's just me.

So, this weekend i'll figure some of the presents out (ideally i would buy them all but i dont think that this is a realistic thought!)... I do like this Christmas time thing, you just feel inclined to believe that everything is going to work out for the best for everyone.

Inspiration of the day: "Good things dont come to those who wait; they come to the people who go out and try to get them" sent to me by Facebook

Family.... Bare with me... It's Christmas Time

I have a crazy family, i've known that from the time when i was real small and talked to others that looked at me weird when i mentioned that we all saw each other (all 15 or more of us) every other weekend...

But it's cool to have a weird family! Granted, it can be intimidating to most outsiders (just ask the only boyfriend i ever introduced to them... yeah i learned with my mistakes!) but to me it just feels good to know that i can count on not 2 but more than 10 people to have opinions on every single thing i throw at them concerning my life. It's feels awesome to know that they just believe so much in me and my abilities... even when i might doubt them myself and it's just great to know that they dont mind, and might even like it a bit too much, to make a fool out of themselves to get a good laugh out of the older ones. In the modern times that we live in where most families are just the mom, dad and kids (and most times not even), mine has mothers, fathers, uncles, cousins, grandparents and others that just know your whole life and still love you no matter what!

But my family is also one to adapt to new things... where before we only had the phone to keep in touch, which made it harder to know the news of our people in the States, we now have moved on to the internet and created an email chain that everyday keeps us all closer and makes us be up to date with every single news from any of our family members... in Lisbon or in NYC.

And ever since Summer ended, my uncle started is snownews, which is basically our daily digest of all things Andorra or snow related... it's the funniest thing! He always send us a little something with a picture to remind us of what to look for. And today i wish i was here...

Inspiration of the day: "All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them." Walt Disney

It's Raining again!

Wow! I love it when we have 3 day weekends and it rains every single day... dont you? Yeah awesome! But on a lighter note only 76 days till the fam goes on our ski trip! YAY! So it's been snowing like mad in Andorra so it should be a good year to make pratice perfect on my snowboarding skills.... Yeah right! I can see my ass full of bruises on day 1 already.... but anyway need to stay positive about it!

Yesterday i spent most of my night watching this show:

Saved

It was an ok attempt but nothing special... i mean the story has been played before and even though i like Tom, his performance cannot carry the whole show. But could be worse.

*side note*: Just when I start to feel weird, you come right in at the right time and remind me why you are special... how do you always know what i need to hear?

Inspiration of the day: "The point of living and of being an optimist, is to be foolish enough to believe the best is yet to come." Peter Ustinov

Missing New York

I miss New York... Today i just woke up missing my city... I don't know why but i just do. I miss my life there and the neverending role of stupid or not so stupid activities one can do there and cannot find here, in Lisbon. I know i'm a cliché... I know everyone says the same about their favorite city when they don't visit it for a while.

It's been more than a year since i've been in the city and even though i'm pretty sure i'll go over there this Summer, I just wanted to be there Today! Just sit for a couple of hours in Washington Square Park looking at the people rushing up and down and imagine what they are rushing to or from... It's one of my greatest pleasures... That and Godiva's chocolate store in SouthStreet Seaport.

But I guess i got to keep remembering and wishing I was there... because sooner or later I will call it home.... just not yet... Gotta live in the present for the time being!

Inspiration of the day: "Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment" Buddha

Mooxuu - A Descoberta!

Ora que bela descoberta esta dos clubes de video online que funcionam. A pessoa tendo vivido em NYC fica habituada a uma série de coisas que começam a despoletar no nosso país: TiVo, Netflix, o bom take-away asiático... enfim um sem número de coisas.

Pois tenho o prazer de anunciar que o nosso país ganhou mais uma pequena batalha (duas na verdade se pensarmos bem!): não há TiVo mas há MEO, que não sendo bem bem a mesma coisa, tem as mesmas funções e vai ajudar muita gente a finalmente acompanhar as suas séries favoritas sem ter que pedir um "ajudinha" à net (já estou na calha para instalar o meu). Mas para mim, bom bom é haver um clube de video online, confiável como o Mooxuu (http://www.mooxuu.com/). Quando há já mais de um ano enviei um email ao marketing da Blockbuster a perguntar um "para quando um sistema online cm vocês têm nos States?", foi prontamente respondido um "para nunca porque os CTT Portugueses falham muito". Ora pois devo dizer-vos que, ou tenho muita sorte, ou não falham assim tanto, porque todos os filmes que me tem enviado o Mooxuu têm chegado até mim logo no dia seguinte! Seria óptimo se, como nos States, os CTT também funcionassem ao Sábado para não perdermos todo o fds à espera do próximo, mas mesmo assim o serviço tem sido impecável e no Mooxuu avisam, inclusivé, quando é que os CTT fazem greve!!!!

E só por isso, um bem haja para vocês... Por isso e por terem filmes que nunca ouvi falar... O que é difícil!!!

O deste fim-de-semana é o Delirious...

Hasta!!!!

XOXO

Será assim tão difícil de entender????

“The woman ruled by Leo is a passionate soul who can easily be loyal and loving when in a secure relationship where she feels she is loved. However, she can become vindictive or bitter when she is scorned. Because this female has such high standards in so many spheres of life, other people rarely meet her expectations. Still, this is not usually a source of worry to her unless the individual concerned is one with whom she is intimately involved. The Leo woman can show love, forgiveness and kindness to complete strangers or mere acquaintances and yet, may be critical and almost harsh to her loved ones if she feels they have failed her in some way. As a sweetheart, this is a female who is proud, hard-to-get and expects much from any partner. As a long-term mate, she has the ability to be self-sacrificing and totally unselfish.”

Mais claro é impossível minha gente!